Recently, a young mother and trainee at my Psychoanalytic Institute and I were talking about the transition to motherhood. She has a 4-month-old, and she had just read an article that talked about “matrescence.” I had never heard this term before but I was immediately taken by it. Finally, a word to name the developmental stage that women go through when they become mothers!
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An Enormous Shift
There is really nothing like this transition, and, yet, we don’t talk about it much. Going from being an individual who can do what she wants, when she wants, responsible mostly just to herself, to being totally responsible for a new, helpless human is an enormous shift. And it can be a shock. Suddenly, everything changes. Independence and autonomy go out the window! Now the baby’s needs have to be constantly considered. When the baby has to feed, sleep, be comforted, or be cuddled has to be taken into account before the woman can decide to do anything else. Life becomes less orderly and much more messy.
This is especially true for women who worked and had control over their own schedules outside of work. Staying home and caring for a baby’s needs can feel like a huge shift in every aspect of her being—her schedule, her priorities, her freedom, and, especially, her identity.
I remember one new mother saying to me, “No one told me how hard this would be!” and she wasn’t just talking about taking care of her baby. She was talking about so many things. She was jealous of her partner getting to go to work each day, getting to take a half hour for lunch, getting to go to the bathroom on their own. She went from working all day to being at home all day, and she felt hemmed in. She loved her new baby, but she also felt that his needs were all-encompassing. She felt she didn’t get a moment to herself. Her partner worked long hours, and for those first few months, she felt quite alone and isolated. She had friends, but she did not feel she had time to reach out to them. At another time she said to me, “The responsibility for keeping my baby alive is all on me.” She felt the weight of this, and it was nothing like anything she had felt before. She also felt the weight of her love and connection to her baby, and that was like nothing she had felt before either.
Rethinking Identity
Of course, for each new mother and each new parent, what feels hard may be different—but for all new parents, especially first-time parents, the transition to motherhood/fatherhood is huge. Each parent has to adjust to who s/he is now, now that s/he is not just an individual or part of a couple but now that s/he is responsible for caring for another human being and having that human being be totally dependent on him or her. S/he has to rethink what it means to be her/him.
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This shift in identity is something that we take for granted. But we shouldn’t. It’s difficult—and comes with mixed feelings and, in some cases, considerable struggle. A post on Psychology Today compares matrescence to adolescence, another stage of life that can be stormy.
Every phase of development in human life comes with conflict. First-time mothers may love their new role—but they can also hate it. They can hate having to stay home because the baby is napping when they would rather be out on a walk or having coffee with a friend. They can hate the long days and the lack of adult companionship. They can hate the total dependence of the baby or the endless routine of feeding, burping, diapering, and soothing. They can feel bored and beleaguered and resentful. They can miss work and the sense of purpose that work brings. Deeper conflicts can be stirred up including feelings about how they were parented themselves or how they feel about bodily functions, time management, productivity, independence, and commitment. And all of this is completely normal.
We need to acknowledge the significance and the difficulty of transition from nonmother to mother and nonfather to father. This is a life transition that resonates with past and future identities, goals, routines, and ways of being. It is transformative. The role of parent adds new dimensions to one’s existing sense of self, to one’s repertoire of feelings and abilities—but it is often a struggle getting used to the new role and all it entails.
Some mothers are “on the brink.”1 It is just too much—particularly for single mothers, mothers whose financial situation is unstable, mothers who are in difficult relationships, and mothers who have to manage working from home and childcare simultaneously. Maternal stress levels are high—life can seem scary and tedious and frustrating all at once. Some have taken to going to a local park and screaming as loud as they can. One mother said, “I feel like a ticking time bomb…but then I am unable to defuse myself.” Another said, “Some days are so busy they feel like they don’t exist. It’s like I just went through 24 hours and I don’t remember any of it because I was just go, go go.”
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It is hard to concentrate on a new baby when there are so many worries. And at the same time, that is what is needed. Some parents find it an escape to just care for their baby. Some are glad that there is little for them to fear they are missing out on while caring for their infant during this time—after all, so little else is happening. There are fewer distractions from the baby and more time to get to know him or her—and, after all, that is the job of the new parent—to get to know the baby and to get to know ourselves in our new role.
It’s time to start taking this transition more seriously—and to start supporting new mothers more fully.
Source link : https://www.psychologytoday.com/za/blog/parenting-matters/202407/the-transition-to-motherhood?amp
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Publish date : 2024-07-11 15:52:53
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